I really love to share my faith. I really do. Why I don’t do it very often, Im not sure. I’ve been told before that I have the gift of evangelism. I was a leader at a camp and was able to lead a girl to Christ at a Habitat for Humanity store. Our guide mentioned this gift to me and that night I really prayed that God would confirm that to me. I had never really thought about my spiritual gifts before. The next day, I found myself talking to a worker on our construction site and soon found that I was sharing the gospel with a 23 year old who had never once been told about Jesus. Now, I don’t know if he ever accepted Jesus as his Saviour, but I did feel that day that God was showing me something about myself that was significant. Sharing Jesus with others makes me feel free. The other day, I had been sitting out on the patio, reading my Bible and praying–trying to meditate 
. I finished and walked up to my garden and was just looking at it and thanking God for his creation when I saw a dove fly over my head. It came from Mladen and Christina’s yard, flew over ours and then turned the corner at Mike and Kristan’s. Now, it may sound silly, but when I saw it, it immediately brought tears to my eyes. To me, it was a significant symbol of the presence of God. It was beauty, peace, significance and majesty all combined. Some of you talk about your spiritual life as jumping out or being on fire. For me, it’s about taking flight. Lord, I’m ready.
Taking flight May 27, 2007
It’s interesting… May 21, 2007
It’s interesting how sometimes you think you are being transparent with those around you and come to find out, you are no more transparent than a brick wall. I was having a conversation this morning with some teachers in the copy room when one of them asked me about Daystar. I proceeded to tell her about the church plant and how exciting it has been so far and that she should come and visit with us sometime. Well, my teammate who is across the hall from me was also in the copy room and said “I didn’t know you were planting a church!” She and I continued to chat and come to find out, she has a Lutheran background and her fiancee has a Baptist background and they are currently seeking somewhere to connect. So, they are going to talk it over and may visit with us this coming Sunday. This is all awesome, but I felt so ashamed that I hadn’t mentioned this before!! I felt sure that I had, but obviously not. I ended up apologizing to her later for not having mentioned it before! How is it possible that the most significant thing I am a part of right now has escaped my daily conversation? Then comes the question. Is it really significant to me? Now, the answer to this question is yes. The problem isn’t in whether or not it is significant to me. The problem lies in my willingness to be transparent with those around me so that they can easily see what is and isn’t significant to me. Small talk builds acquaintances. Authenticity builds relationships.
Again, patience May 18, 2007
BLOGROLL!!!!!! This is what I screamed out excitedly when Hal finally helped me figure this whole thing out. I was practically in tears this morning at work–everything read like Greek to me and I wasn’t too excited about it in the first place as I hate to be on the computer unless it is for work and my ahem, encouraging husband has been asking me repeatedly when I am going to blog–all of this combined made for a very stressful morning. I mean, who cares if I blog? Who really cares about all the little insignificant things that happen in my day and what I am feeling? This is like talking on the phone, magnified ten times!!! I figured, I’ll just get on here and read the blogs since that is what everyone wants me to do and then I will be done. I won’t have to do any self reflection or “be deep” or anything else. Riiighht. It’s funny how we have this defense mechanism that kicks in anytime we have to make ourselves vulnerable to people. It’s also funny how God can take my coat of self righteousness and sour attitude and transform it into an ashen sack of humility. The truth is, I care. The truth is there is no such thing as insignificant in God’s creation and the truth is, I care about what is going on in all of your lives’ too. Why is that so difficult for me to say? I don’t know. I guess God will continue to deal with me on that one.
